Why Do We Need So Many Reminders To Be Grateful

The past two weeks of my life have been really interesting. I'll spare you the details (too long a story for now), but just know that there were a few times I wanted to intentionally forget what a Christian walk was supposed to look like and just yell in the street. I'm not saying this is completely normal for everyone else, but I firmly believe anyone trying to live a life of conviction, no matter their belief system, experiences moments of frustration and are tempted to scream out "Why??!!" But of course, God could always yell back "Why not?!"

About 30 mins ago I had a rant/venting session with a friend over something that another friend had done. I totally let my emotions take control and I was perfectly ok with being upset the rest of the night about it. Silly, but true. I was going to actively choose to be angry because I felt I had been done wrong. Then, I get to my apartment and in my rush to pack (I'm supposed to be in Maryland to visit with Cajun Spice in 5 hours and I haven't anything clean to pack. Again, another story for another day SMH) and I checked my messages. I had a message from a dear friend that was short and sweet. However, in the short and sweet message I was reminded that my friend had lost far more than what I had been complaining (most ranting/venting is complaining) I'd lost just a few moments ago. And on top of the loses of this friend, I've NEVER heard them complain/vent/express any frustration.

I literally had to pause, take a breath, close my eyes, tell God I was sorry, tell Him thank You for the things and people in my life, and rushed to make a blog entry (I should probably be packing). I don't ever desire to be a Christian who wants people to believe I have it all figured out and that I don't have moments when the flesh wins over the spirit. No one's Christian walk is perfect. We all still sin on a daily basis. There are things I'm beyond at this point and consider them to be utter foolishness now, but I understand it's a lifetime process of growth for us all. I'm loved, I'm blessed, I'm thankful. I just wish I didn't need to keep reminding myself of that sometimes.